New Deals

Still kinda drunk, watching Supernatural with about 3 GB of porn at my fingertips. All is looking up in the world.

Eli

Where the fuck are you when I need to talk to you?

Down The Drain

So July seems to be a plumbing themed month, and all I ever seem to write about these days is crap.
Today is no exception.
"It feels that I'm slowly growing further and further away from the outside world." Probably the most accurate summary of things right now.
I went to the doctor a few weeks ago to get a cough looked at and ended up getting referred to a psychologist. It's getting worse for all of us at the moment it seems, which does not help at all. It's hard to feel at home or at ease when the place you live in is cut off most of the time from everyone but your landlord, and even when you're with your friends you feel alone.Then compound onto that the bullshit things that have been happening lately and the general feeling of 'fuck it all' coming from a few of us.
I remember the first session I had, the lady told me that it was all just hormones and that if I did breathing exercises and went to bed earlier it would help a lot. I wish fixing ourselves was as easy as breathing. But at the moment it's a bit of an all the kings horses and all the kings men situation.
Everything is slipping away like sand through open hands. My jobs, my family, my friends, my heart and now finally my sanity.

Life

This fucking sucks. I know i brought it on myself, and if I could go back and change it, I would. I'd do anything to fix what's happening. I feel like a divorced husband who's given everything to his ex-wife. At the worst possible time, I have nobody around. Everyone is busy or all having fun with Ivan. I can't see my own friends because I lack the capacity to keep my fucking mouth shut. I can't even remember the last time I felt so alone. It's only been about a week or two since i last saw everyone, but even that is far too long to be away from people like them. I just don't want to be in this city anymore. I need to get away from everything, go somewhere where nobody knows me. Make friends with mediocre people who i won't miss when they're away, who won't care if I'm not around. Just live a life where i don't have to deal with this shit. Fuck it all.

Saikano

Such an intense series.

Satisfied Mind

How many times have you heard someone say,
If I had money I would do things my way.
But little they know that it's so hard to find.
One rich man in ten with a satisfied mind.

Money can't buy her back, or your youth when you're old,
A friend when you're lonely, or a piece to your soul,
The wealthiest person is a pauper at times,
Compared to the man with a satisfied mind.

When my life is over and my time has run out,
My friends and my lovers, I will leave, there's no doubt.
But one thing's for certain when it comes my time,
I'll leave this old world with a satisfied mind.

New kicks

I bought these shoes in Japan for about 80 bucks. I love life.

( . Y . )

Japan was a gang.

Ultimate 2 Weeks

Heading to Japan on monday. So siked. Gonna pump down about 8 litres of sake a night, spend my money buying useless things like used panties, sample exotic tobacco and crack onto every girl I see. Will post photos and stories when I get back. Also tomorrow is the Cooma show. Itchin to get there already, coz all the Runaways will be together for the first time since Nowra, we're playing Bury Your Dead covers and I can't wait to see Eli. After that it's straight to Goulburn for the weekend to get Andrew ready for J-pan, then back here to catch planes to faraway places. BRACE YOURSELVES FOR EPIC POSTS IN 2 WEEKS TIME.
In the meantime, suss yourselves some:
*Mary Jane Kelly - Demo & Our Streets Turn White
*Tegan and Sara - Whatever you can get onto
*Something More - The Cost Of Living
*Vera - 08 Demo


BRB JAPAN

Tegan and Sara

Tegan and Sara have been ruling my life for years now, but I can't even come close to describing how I feel even now when I listen to them. Just get chills and goosebumps. Gonna start a band with Adrian, Ivan, Baby J and hopefully CB, doing more melodic stuff. Want to cover a Tegan and Sara song in it. Also starting an acoustic project with Justin. Probably cover one in that too. I dunno, I'm just too amazed.

Empty In Between

Went to Jess's place last night and had about a THOWzend beers. Played a bit of guitar hero and did some massive guitar spins, resulting in a broken vase. shit sucked hard. On the plus side, I had more amazing conversations with Justin. I love that kid so much. I really need him around in times like this, even if it's just to talk. Things are getting heavy for everyone involved with the Runaways right now, and it's been building up for a couple of months now. They say the night is darkest before the dawn. Hopefully this is as dark as this night gets.

Never Found The Words

It's killing me that I can't be there for you when you need me the most. While I try to drown sorrows of my own, you're miles away, can't escape the pain of what you've lost. I feel so fucking selfish for doing this to the dearest of friends, powerless to help you through. I don't know what to do, I don't know if there is anything I can do. But know that I would go through hell and back just to see you smile again.

Lyric

As I sit and watch the sun rise, I feel at home for the first time in years. The cold sends shivers up my spine, and my breath hangs on the air like fog. Stale cigarettes and empty bottles are scattered on the frosty grass. I think back to before we met, and remember what it was like to be alone in a world filled with fake friends and fake family, drowning in a sea of no hope. I gave and gave until there was nothing left but hate for myself and everyone around me. When I felt like my world was about to collapse, you held out your hand and pulled me out of this mess. You showed me how to live again. We sit and talk and I realise how much we are alike. I'll never be able to tell you how much you mean to me. As we sit and watch the sun rise, I feel at home for the first time in years.

Runaways

Had the best time last night. Went to the club for dinner, then went into the city for brews at King O'Malleys, had dudes buying me beers left right and centre. Went back to Ivan's and had a massive chat with Adrian and Justin til about 5 in the morning.
FFFWAAAAPPPPPWOOODDOOOLOOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPP!!!!!

Another Year Down...

Really siked to head out to the city tonight with the runaways. I love that they were all DTP at a second's notice. Best dudes I know.

I'm gonna drink until I forget the world gave up.